Tuesday, September 23, 2025
Friday, September 19, 2025
Hops from my walk the other day. Apparently hops are female and naturally bitter, much like myself:)
I've had a cold for a couple of days, nothing terrible, cough and phelgm, hasn't slowed me down much thank goodness. Charlie got a slightly shorter walk yesterday as a result, and I only worked in the yard for about 45 minutes. I'm in the process of picking up all the tiny pears that are falling from our tree. The pears are not big enough to eat, about the size of a small plum tomato. Tedious work. The front yard has tiny, tiny crapapples, the size of small grapes that need to be raked and picked up as well.
A couple of days ago, while walking Charlie, I spotted a man standing in the midle of the road, talking on his phone. He was there for awhile and as I got closer, he still didn't move. I went up to him and gently suggested he move to the sidewalk. He told me to get away, then called me crazy, and then called me a Karen. I yelled back at him, "I hope you get run over", because I'm classy like that.
As I walked away from him, he was still yelling at me. WTF! I was worried about the guy, wondered if he had dementia. Turns out he was just an entitled, old, white guy. If he's still married, I feel sorry for his wife. I'm tired of entitled men who think the world is all about them as they cut you off in traffic, or tailgate you while you drive the speed limit.
Of course I started crying as I finished my walk home, because strong emotions do that to me, make me cry. The last time I came across a man standing in the middle of the road he was a very sweet man who was confused and had a head injury. Nobody stopped for him, they just drove around him. I stopped for him and called 911 and stayed with him until help came.
One man was indegenous, one was white. That says a lot right there.
I'm so tired of the racism, sexism, ableism, ageism, homophobia, transphobia, and religious discrimination. trump and his ilk (Danielle Smith in this province) promote this sort of division because it suits their purpose. Give the people someone to hate, to blame all of their problems on, and they'll leave the politicians alone to pursue their own agenda.
It's horrible and I can't block it out because it's everywhere right now.
As I told Boud, I'm going to buy some wool and start crocheting again, and walk my dogs, because dogs are better than people. And I'll work in the yard where nobody calls me crazy and my plants grow beautiful flowers for me.
Tuesday, September 16, 2025
Sunflowers on the deck.
My hubby's sister and her partner came over for supper last weekend. We found out that apparently we are trying to force his mother into a nursing home, not something either one of us was aware of, at least that's what the other sister is telling people. We haven't heard from or seen his mother since his father died two years ago. I hate people spreading lies about me.
I started up my pottery classes again yesterday. There were two new ladies there, both widows, lovely, funny women. One of them is a death doula which I found fascinating, the other is an artist and they moved into together four months ago to keep each other company. Seems like an excellent way to deal with loneliness.
The one lady was telling us that she had gone on a date, by accident; she didn't realize it was a date. The guy was creepy, tried to kiss her, told her she had man hands (which he thought was sexy). He asked how her husband had died and while she talked, he scrolled through instagram, looking at memes. She finally told him that he obviously wasn't interested and she was leaving. He kept texting her and when she said she only wanted a friend, he told her that she needed to get laid. He was sixty-five. She blocked his number.
And me? Hubby is sick but insisted on going to work today. Jack is fine, going to school five days a week, so lunches every morning for a boy who will only eat cheese (options are limited). The rental house should be finished today and the work on my own garden is coming along nicely.
I thought about my son and Gracie the other day, how they want to spend time with Jack, but both of them wanting it to be more exciting than it really is. Child rearing is so boring, schedules, routines, and boredom. I had forgotten how boring it was. It was much worse with Katie, I had three children, always tired and stressed, but she needed so much predictability and stability, so much sameness. Every night was the same. It was a daily grind.
And now I feel the same way again. Bored. I need to find something to do in the evenings. I'm restless and it's only September, usually I don't feel this way until February and winter has dragged on for far too long.
I'm bored, which is funny, considering how stressful this month has been so far, but now that the house has been dealt with, I'm "now what". I'm retired. I'm raising a six year old. I have limited adult contact during the day. I need to find something else to do.
Sunday, September 14, 2025
Fall is upon us, although the weather doesn't quite match up. The days are just as hot as this past summer, but at least the nights are cool, which means the house can cool off.
I made the mistake of working in the rental house yard on Friday and ended up with a mild case of heat stroke I think. It was hot and I was working hard in the sun, and I'm not young anymore. I was very wobbly, dizzy, headache, nausea, dry skin, and just generally felt awful. I came home, had a shower, lay down in the basement and still didn't feel better. Then I got cold and went upstairs to lay on my bed, with my fleece pyjamas on. I couldn't sleep but I couldn't get up either, just lay there feeling crappy.
Finally after a few hours I felt a little better and had ice cream and toast for supper.
I'm feeling gun shy about being outside in the heat now, with still more work needed. Slow down I guess.
Jack went to visit his grandma yesterday and stayed overnight so we had a little free time. Hubby's sister and her husband came over for supper. They're nice enough, but a couple of odd ducks. They also both talk as much as Jack:)
I took Katie out for lunch today and she's doing well. Her forehead skin as actually healed for the first time in what feels like years. She has permanent scars on her forehead and usually has either an open wound or scabs. She's happy, happy enough to not bang her head on the floor. Big win.
The cleaners are still working on the house but the best news is that all the cat pee and poop have been cleaned up. I may buy some sage and smudge the house before the new owners move in.
Otherwise, life goes on.
Because the world needs more smiles right now.
Wednesday, September 10, 2025
Sunday, September 7, 2025
Some ladybugs I found under a tiny piece of wood that I moved. A loveliness of ladybugs, huddled together to stay warm.
Thursday, September 4, 2025
I'll be missing in action for a little while. We have to get our rental ready for sale. The young lady moved out and left a mess, not all of it hers, some of it was from four years ago when Gracie walked away from all of her shit.
We had a company come and haul away 7 loads of garbage and furniture for a cost of $4000. I know. The place is still filthy, including cat pee and poop back from when Gracie lived there. Apparently her cats pulled the insulation off the walls in the crawl space and peed and pooped all over it. It will take more money to clean the place up.
I'm in the yard cutting back loads of growth from the last eight years, that ones on me, or us. We should have kept up with it but didn't. It's often easier to just close your eyes and pretend everything is fine.
So I'm cleaning up the yard which will be at the very least one more load to the dump. I came home because I need my chainsaw:)
Tuesday, September 2, 2025
My husband built this beautiful shed this summer and I love it. I'm calling it our anniversary gift to each other.
And now for some funny, because god knows we all need it.