I tried to take Katie to Fort Edmonton on Sunday because I know it closes for the season soon.  We got there at 10:30 and it was closed.  Apparently they changed the hours of operation but I didn't know until we got there.  We weren't about to hang around for an hour and a half, so I took her for a walk along the river for some fresh air.  She got to pet some friendly dogs and said hi to everyone who was running the race that was going on.  We also ran into someone who knew Katie from Little Bits Theraputic Riding.  Edmonton is a large city now and it always surprises me when we meet people who know Katie.

I had my birthday on Saturday.  I always find birthdays don't meet expectations, a lot like Christmas day.  I'm sixty-three now.  Still waiting for my wisdom:)

I went to pottery yesterday and had a lovely time.  The ladies there are wonderful, supportive, and funny.  The two new ladies are sisters which I didn't realize.  They are also funny as hell.  I managed to make a large fruit bowl.  It wasn't perfect but I stopped messing with it because the longer I mess with things, the more damage I do.  I let it go.  It's a good lesson for life and perhaps pottery should be a mandatory course in school.

The Wednesday course that Jack and I are going to too had a slide about what children want/need.

1. Love

2. Empathy

3. Connection

It made me think about my son and I realized I want to repair our relationship.  He's says he's sober, but time will tell.  I'm not about to rush into anything, but I do love him, despite everything.  I put a wall around my heart years ago when it came to dealing with him, but walls don't really protect people, they just keep us apart from others. The same with anger and grudges and resentment.  All of those keep us from letting people in.  We hold them close like they are the most precious things in our lives, when really all they do is isolate us, making it even harder for us to love, and be loved.

My dad could never let anyone close to him either and it caused so much pain and suffering in our family, for all of us, and most especially for him I think.  It's no way to live, or die.

Enough sad for now, made myself cry.

The fall equinox has come and gone.  The sun rises in the east again, briefly, before it heads further south in the sky.  It's that time of year and I love the golden light that shines into my kitchen.

And a funny.