I was feeling down today, weepy, and thought I might take tomorrow off if I could get a vacation day. Then I spoke to a young nurse I work with whose 38 year sister is dying of brain cancer and I gently pulled my head out of my ass.
Yesterday I had a 42 year old patient who was diagnosed with metastatic pancreatic cancer.
Yesterday I documented everything that's happened over the past three years with Gracie and it sucked me down into a dark hole.
I'm thankful Jack is safe and loved.
There will always be people worse off than us but it doesn't make our own situation any better to know that does it. However, it sounds like you pulled yourself out of that hole you got sucked into. Stay strong and stay away from dark holes! x
ReplyDeleteYour issues are connected with the happiness and security of a lovely little boy. Better that than the end of a loved one's life
ReplyDeleteI agree with Marksgran. I've always said that someone else's cancer doesn't fix my broken leg BUT it can put things in perspective.
ReplyDeleteStill- you are doing your best for that boy and that is truly what matters.
Jack is safe and loved, that's your doing. Sending love and light to you.
ReplyDeleteGetting perspective is important yet there is nothing wrong with feeling overwhelmed and sad about what's been happening in our own lives. I'm very glad Jack has the Big Guy and you. xoxo
ReplyDeleteYou work in an area that I sense I could not - well done you and no wonder that at times you feel weepy. Lost my mum in law to pancreatic cancer this year and that felt tragic - it must be so much more so when the patient is half her age
ReplyDeleteThat's a hard job you have. Kudos to you for doing it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you are documenting, but yeah-it gets to a person.
ReplyDeleteGlad you are documenting too, but it is a lot to Process my Friend, stay Strong. Your line of Work requires so much compassion and exposure to so much Heartache of those afflicted, you Rock!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteO my goodness. Three years. I remember being three years old. There was no one like you and the Big Guy in my life or maybe I was not aware of anyone. Who knows? I am here today, grateful, and rooting for you and the Big Guy and Jack.
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