We had Jack last night and took him with us when we went to visit Katie. And I'm so tired and just have no energy. The visit didn't go well. Both Katie and I ended up crying, Jack looked surprised and the big guy protected me from Katie pulling my hair while I drove her home. Fortunately she didn't open up her door until we were at a stop sign, in her neighborhood. It might not have gone so well if she'd opened it up on the freeway.
It's not working. We can take care of Jack or we can take care of Katie but we can't do both, not even with two adults. I'm exhausted and have to go back to work tomorrow. The weekends are no longer a time to recharge and Gracie's parents don't want to help out with the little guy which makes me feel resentful. My ex-husband has only visited Katie once in the last fifteen months and he just let me know he won't be coming again for awhile. He used to visit Katie every other weekend which gave us a break but that's gone.
Right now I've got nothing left. Tomorrow will be better. A good sleep will help but changes will have to be made. We can't keep doing this.