Well, it snowed, is snowing still. It's official, winter is here.
So many clothes, jackets, boots, mitts, hats.
The cold.
The feeling of being stuck inside.
Driving in the snow.
Going anywhere in the snow, it just takes longer.
Putting mittens on small hands.
It's so long.
The parts of winter that I do like.
It's beautiful.
The snow makes everything quieter.
I feel like baking and cooking more often.
I sleep better in the dark.
I think winter just makes everything harder and everything takes longer. I need to make an effort to get outside more this winter. It will be easier with Jack, he's big enough to manage in the snow by himself now.
Today though, I feel blue. I'll clean the floors and get on my stationary bike for a long ride. Other than that, what to do?
Katie's agency contacted us with concerns about her banging her head. She's been so good for so long and now it's starting up again, but we don't know why. That upsets me. I feel stretched thin between her and Jack. Her father rarely visits these days; it feels like he's just left it to me, except she has two parents.
Maybe I just need a good cry.
I had a good cry last night. It was like everything just broke through. Phew. I do feel better today.
ReplyDeleteI never did end up crying but the sun has come out in full force today; it's still cold but the sky is blue and that always makes me feel better.
DeleteA good cry can be therapeutic. The anticipation of the winter can make all of us blue. In my case, it's those dreary gray and rainy days and not so much the snow. (which is rare here) So, it's not even beautiful! But I can wear gear and get out in it at least. Sorry that Katie is having issues and hope that they can be figured out and addressed.
ReplyDeleteCloudy days get me down too which is part of the reason I never wanted to move to Vancouver when I was married to my ex-husband. He was based out of Vancouver eventually near the end of our marriage.
DeleteYou are doing so much, really you do. I hope for you that all that hard stuff gets easier.
ReplyDeleteI read through your list of parts of the winter you like . . . nothing there for me. I can do without winter. But, well, we get through. You will get through.
I will get through it. I'll take Heidi out for a short walk today in the fresh air.
DeleteI love winter -- especially the "no bugs" aspect -- but only since I bought ski pants and never go anywhere without them, outdoors. My son Emil is a very slow walker (cerebral palsy; elbow crutches) and I could be pretty impatient when I was cold. Ski pants saved me from being a miserable shivering cow whenever I took him somewhere.
ReplyDeleteI don't mind driving in winter either, unless the road is blocked and I didn't have a headsup, and then hoo boy ... not good ... I have plowed a road with the vehicle I was driving, at least once! It was wild but I made it through to the other side. I had to; once you're in it, there's no stopping or you'll be stopped till someone digs you out.
Someone said "Every day now is one day closer to spring" and I keep reminding myself of that.
Sorry to hear Katie is having troubles. Your poor heart. The worry.
-Kate
Only six more months to go!
DeleteThat snow looks gorgeous but I can understand the frustration of a long, cold winter.
ReplyDeleteHave that cry, bake a cake, read a book.
As for Jack and Kate, you can only do what you can do. Don't beat yourself up because you can't fix everything and everyone. You do more than most.
Our family doc is also retiring and that's causing me some anxiety. Our family doc delivered Katie and has known her for her whole life. I made supper this morning so it will be easy tonight and the sun is shining today.
DeleteGulp! I am surprised that you have had such a snowfall at the start of November. That is a hell of a long winter you have ahead of you. So sorry to hear about Katie's head banging but of course I cannot offer any practical suggestions. Sorry.
ReplyDeleteWe have very long winters, cold too. It's unusual for it not to snow in November. We're a tough breed, not like you Yorkshire blokes, well known for their tender and fragile constitutions:)
DeleteOh! Shut the window darling, I can feel a draught and do you know where I put my ear muffs?
DeleteI am not crazy about winter. Last year I didn't hate it as much as I thought I would, but all the friggin' CLOTHING that one must wear, then take off and put away. It's a pain. Plus all the polar fleece puts static in my hair and it stands on end. We had a brief graupel today, it's supposed to snow in the next few days.
ReplyDeleteSorry Katie is having a tough time of it. I hope it gets sorted.
I had to look up graupel, we get that sometimes too. Yes, it's all the frigging clothing that irritates me, just to step outside. And now the arguing with a three year old who doesn't want to wear a coat:)
DeleteYou probably DO need a good cry, but you also need some help. And winter and the lack of light surely can't help. Sometimes, when things get really rough here for me, the only thing I cling to is the sunshine and the blue sky, the weather. I sure do wish you could come for a visit.
ReplyDeleteI sure wish I could come for a visit too. I even looked up flights to LA but that's not going to happen because I'm on medical leave. Maybe next winter.
DeleteI do hope Katie's behaviour calms down - for her sake as well as yours! You have so much on your plate! And I actually don't mind winter (prefer it to summer to be honest). That's selfish of me since I don't have to go to work any more but I just LOVE the quiet and stillness when the snow falls - shovelling it, not so much!
ReplyDeleteIt's the cold that gets me the worst.
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ReplyDeleteYour snow is lovely and peaceful. I’m sorry to hear the news about Katie. I pray it abates soon.