Monday, October 24, 2022



Fall is over and it's freezing at night now.  The garden is ready for winter but I'm not.  Five months of dark and cold.  I'm still stuck at home with my foot and I'm not looking forward to shorter days that feel even longer because I can't get outside in the garden.  It could be worse but it still sucks.  This is a photo of a mum I planted in August.  They're tough flowers.

Jack is settling in to our home again.  He saw his mom for a few hours, with her sister in attendance, and last night in his bath he kept saying, "Oh fuck."  Not once or twice but repeatedly.  I can't tell him that I kinda feel the same way but I did tell him we don't use that word.  I told him we say fart which didn't even slow him down.  I finally just walked away and let him get out of the tub on his own.  No point in giving him attention for swearing.

Of course we still have no idea what will happen going forward.  Gracie got a job at a daycare that obviously doesn't do very good background checks.  She also found an apartment that from the reviews sounds like there are a lot of cockroaches in the suites and homeless people sleeping in the doorways.  Sounds great.  The guardians will have a meeting in a couple of weeks.  Lori is leaving for Singapore on Friday, so when she comes back we'll meet.

I try not to think about the future but it's always there, in the back of my mind.  

The following is for Mr. Pudding.




I feel a little blue but it will pass.  I think it's just all of the shit with Jack and Gracie.  We had a lovely visit with Miss Katie yesterday which was so nice and we took Jack to Wetaskiwin to visit my father in law.  Jack and my father in law got along like a house on fire which did my heart good.  There are not enough children on wards filled with old people.  People shouldn't be separated by age.  We all need to be together.  Old people have patience, wisdom and time, while children have energy and the need to play.  They're a good mix and bring out the best in each other I think.

I'm putting heavy quilts on the beds today, the highlight of my day:)  I do lead a reckless life.



11 comments:

  1. I'm happy Jack is there with you, and I hope he can stay there with you indefinitely.

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  2. Jack really does not need to be around his mother. I doubt you need me to tell you this.
    Is there anything that can be done about your foot? Surgery? Probably not. I feel so bad for you. I know you are not a sit-down person.

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  3. Getting accustom to these longer colder nights. Someone gave me a weighted blanket. The man loves it. It makes me feel claustrophobic so I generously gave it up ;) Take care♥

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  4. I've had a down week too. The weather/season change always does me in a bit. The uncertainty over Jack and what's going on with him adds a lot to that stress. She got hired at a DAYCARE? Good lawd. That meme made me laugh although it also made me grimace. My ex-boyfriend's mother was in a Catholic rest home where the basement area served as a daycare. The young ones mingled with the old folks, sang them songs and came around to show off their drawings, etc. It was lovely for both groups.

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  5. Well, Gracie's new apartment sounds like a great place to raise a child - not. I wish she could clean up her act. Sorry about the foot. We've coming to the realization that our days of walking for hours are done. It's depressing - me, in my head, wasn't done, but the feet rule our lives.

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  6. Thank you for the thoughtful gift - a sweet reminder of Britain's current political landscape. But have no fear, Super Rishi will save the day!

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  7. I wonder how long before Gracie rocks up to work under the influence of something.
    Of course you feel out of sorts. You cannot begin to imagine your future until you know what is happening with Jack. That is huge.
    I love the comment on the UK govt. Very apt.

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  8. Oh my - you did the absolute right thing walking away from Jack when he swore! Poor little soul, doesn't even realize it. And as for that meme - it's spot on isn't it!

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  9. Sounds like Gracie should never even be around Jack much less raise him. Ugh

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  10. Gracie GOT A JOB AT A DAY CARE?!?!

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