We're back to more normal temperatures which I appreciate, as do my plants.  That tall, green plant on the right is a tomato plant that I grew from seed back in March.  I'm impressed at how well they've been doing.  I ended up with five tomato plants in total.

I had a tarot card reading from a lovely lady, which was spot on.  I'm trying to let go of my anger and grudges because I know I do hold onto them.  My two biggest problems which came up were my stubbornness and my defensiveness with ideas on how to deal with them.  My husband would agree with those two being my biggest problems, along with my impatience.  In my defence (yes, I get the irony) I am less stubborn and less impatient than I used to be:)  She also suggested I spend more time on self care and get in touch with the little girl I used to be.  I tried this last night and when I talked to her, the little girl I used to be, I ended up crying quite a lot.  It wasn't a bad kind of crying though, more of a realization of how vulnerable children are and how much they need to feel safe and loved.

This morning I'm going for a massage which will help my back.  It's been so sore these past couple of weeks, along with my right arm.  I try to ignore them but that doesn't really work.

I started looking into my geneology which has been quite interesting.  I found family going back into the 1700s on ancestry.ca, with a free trial.  I found a great-great uncle who was born in New Brunswick and a homestead in Alberta that my grandfather, or great grandfather (can't remember which), homesteaded in Alberta.  On my father's side there were a lot of coal miners;  and on my mother's side, I found a lot of military men in England and Ireland.  

It's the kind of stuff that leads you down a rabbit hole and it's been an enjoyable way to pass a few hours.  It may be slightly addicting.  I didn't realize my family had come to Canada earlier than I thought they had and I also didn't realize how much people moved around even in the 1800s.  I thought it was a modern phenomenom but apparently that's not true.  

This is my mum as a young girl, maybe three or four.  I can't ask her anymore and that's sad.  I still have questions for both my parents but I can't ask them and never thought to ask them when they were alive.  Maybe that's why I'm enjoying this genealogoy search, it feels like a connection to both of them.  Names will come up and then I remember something that my mum said many years ago and it's a connection back to mum.

I'm off today and I'm going to try to take it easy and spend some time in the woods with the dogs because we're all happiest there.