I took Katie for her ultrasound on Monday afternoon.  Her caregiver had given her some ativan but she was also in pain so asked that she be given another tylenol #3.  She's been having pain all week.  When we got into the US room, I helped Katie lay down on the stretcher, at which point she started sobbing and continued to sob throughout the entire ultrasound.  Of course I started crying too.  It was heart wrenching.  

She still has ovarian cysts. She is still having pain and we still have to wait forever to see a gynecologist.  Katie doesn't understand why she is having pain and she doesn't understand why we have to wait so long for something to be done.  She also doesn't understand that she has to tell her caregivers that she is having pain to get some pain relief. 

I want to do something to help her but I don't know what to do.  She has pain medication and ativan to help with the pain and the acting out but I would like this to be resolved for her.  I had an ovarian cyst which had to be removed about 20 years ago, the good old days when the provincial government was not trying to dismantle public health care and specialist access was much better.

I was upset and emptied out after I dropped her off at her house, into the arms of strangers (to me).  I could not go home empty so I stopped at the greenhouse to refill my cup, just a little.  It helped, a little.

The snow has mostly melted and Jack had me out bike riding again yesterday, after school and after supper.  He's doing so well on his bike and cannot wait to ride back and forth to school.  I will be riding with him, so I'll be getting a fair bit more exercise, which is not a bad thing but my knees do hurt when I ride.

There has been some success in regenerating cartilage that gives me hope that one day I will not need a knee replacement but can regenerate my own cartilage.  That would be amazing.

A couple of friends and I have joined a pottery studio in Fort Saskatchewan which will allow us more time to work on our pottery and will give us access to much nicer glazes.  It's actually cheaper than the lessons we're taking right now.  My beef with studio we go to now is that 1.45 hours is not enough time to work on much.  It's hurry up, hurry up.  We have asked for a longer class, or more frequent classes but they don't want to do that, so we found someplace that will allow us more time in the studio.  We checked it out yesterday and it's lovely, so is the owner.  Tomorrow we're heading out there for 4 hours.  I would go for longer, but Jack get's home at 4pm and I have to be home for that.  

Taxes are done and paid.  Quilts are finished and the sewing machine has been put away for the summer.  Yard work should begin shortly.  I have crocuses coming up and the leopard's bane leaves are pushing their way through the soil, all signs of a true spring.