Sunday, September 7, 2025


Some ladybugs I found under a tiny piece of wood that I moved.  A loveliness of ladybugs, huddled together to stay warm.

I've been so tired lately, shockingly tired, dragging my ass tired.  Not sure why.  I feel down too but not sure if it's just depression or something else.  The beauty of mental illness, you're never really sure:)

I worked at the rental house again yesterday, cutting back trees and bushes that had gotten out of hand.  I have a large pile which will need to be removed and I'll call a service tomorrow and see if they will come and put the stuff through a chipper.  No sense in all that good stuff going to a landfill when it could be used as mulch.

I also have a crew of cleaners coming on Tuesday and Wednesday to clean the house, including the cat pee and poop in the basement.  I'm thankful they're going to clean it all up and not me.  Our renter has said she will pay some of the cost of garbage removal, half of it was her stuff.  Gracie refuses to pay anything because she never takes responsibility for her actions.  She only blames others, and even said it was our fault because if we hadn't claimed Jack as a dependent, she would have the money (I'm damned sure she wouldn't have paid for anything, even if she had the money, because it's always someone else's fault).

Jack can read a little now and he happened to see a file on my desktop that said his name and CRA (Canada Revenue Agency).  He asked what that was about and I told him that we had to apply to the tax agency to have him as our dependent.  He said, "So you can keep me?"

I said, "Yes, so we can keep you.  Do you want us to keep you?"

He said, "Yes".

So we're keeping him.  He's so sweet sometimes.  The rental house and all the junk in it was a treasure trove for him and he ended up bringing some balls home, a MarioKart game, a golf ball, a key, a marker, a penny, and a few other treasures.  The MarioKart game kept him busy all morning.  You lay out an AI assist track on the floor, and then the car has a remote control.  He loved setting out the track.

The big guy has gone over the rental because the neighbor's son is interested in buying it.  Both the neighbor and his son are contractors (builders in England), and the work that needs to be done on the house doesn't scare them.  Good.  I guess we'll see.


I need a laugh:)  I should probably get that shirt.


25 comments:

  1. I might have shed a small tear at the interaction with Jack.
    Fingers crossed the neighbour buys the rental. So much easier for you.

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    1. The neighbor's son is going to buy the house. Yay!

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  2. As you probably know, here in England we call those insects "ladybirds" - not "ladybugs" even though they are obviously not birds! You are possibly feeling rather down because you just want the rental house situation brought to a conclusion. Yes - it may be as simple as that Pixie - so hang in there.

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    1. I'm hanging on. I get knocked down, but I get up again:)

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  3. Dear little Jack! So you can keep me, awww. I may have teared up a little there.

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    1. Just about made me cry too. We will keep him.

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  4. Those look like ceramic ladybugs; they are so glossy! Are you sure you didn't polish them? :) That's sweet of Jack to say "yes" to staying with you. I suspect, like most kids, if he was mad at you, he would say NO. I was told by younger daughter that she hated me when she didn't get her own way. Which was fairly often since she was a willful kid. (and now a willful adult, sigh) Are you anemic perhaps? Should you have some blood work done? I'm glad the son and his dad are willing to take it on; it'll be interesting to see what they do to it. I've always loved those renovation shows and make overs!

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    1. Oh he hates us sometimes, and tells us what a terrible life he has, but that passed fairly quickly. He also told me he loved me yesterday, he rarely says that. His mom always says, tell me you love me. He says it when he means it.

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    2. I had blood work done a short while ago and everything was normal, except for my lipids.

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  5. One of these days I'll remember to use the drop down menu. LOL

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  6. I hope the rental place sells so it will be off your mind. Bless you for all you are doing with Jack. That's a huge load to carry. ❤️

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  7. You've been hard at it physically, maybe that's why you're tired? You ain't no spring chicken no more, Hunny! Or as my mother used to say to me (and she died when I was only 45), "You're not getting any younger, you know." But you'll get checked out, eh? Sometimes it pays.

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    1. No spring chicken indeed, I'm an old stewing hen:) That might be part of it, who knows.

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  8. I am glad that you are not tackling the mess by yourself. And hopefully the neighbor's son will buy it! Maybe you are tired because you've been dealing with all of the mess?
    And Jack saying "yes" was just wonderful to read!

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    1. The sale is going through. Jack saying yes made me very happy. We're doing something right.

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  9. Fingers crossed your old tenant does chip in towards some of the costs. And I hope the sale is smooth. I love that Jack found some treasures, especially fun ones!

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    1. I hope the old tenant does pay up, at least some. Gracie never will.

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  10. Is it possible you're so damn tired because you are working too hard? Honey!
    Jack. I know it's so hard, doing what you're doing but those small moments are huge reminders of why you're doing it.

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    1. I've always worked hard my whole life though, that hasn't changed, although I am a little older:)

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  11. Well, I can see why you've been tired -- you have a lot on your plate at the moment! And it's real physical labor, clearing all that overgrowth in the garden.

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    1. I always have a lot on my plate. We sold the house yesterday though, so one less thing to worry about.

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  12. Thyroid levels checked recently? I know, never give health advise online esp not to a pro.
    Anyway.
    That shirt was designed for me.

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    1. TSH is good. I've been on sythroid for 32 years and my TSH never changes thankfully.
      That shirt is definitely for me too:)

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  13. That tshirt - thanks for the laugh.

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