I continue to go through the 963 blog posts that I had. Of course as I go through them, I read them and then decide whether or not to delete them. I can tell you some things.
I complain a lot.
I was sick a lot.
I was depressed a lot.
I feel my mental health is better now, and certainly way better than it was while I was going through menopause.
Work was hard and caused me a lot of grief because of understaffing, working with a couple of horrible nurses, useless managers, and patients who were sick and dying. I didn't realize what a toll it took on me until I read some of my old posts.
Work was hard on my body physically too.
All this and I haven't even gotten to the pandemic yet. Only 605 more posts to go through. I have learned though that if I don't edit the post, and I move the post to draft, I can just hit publish and it will have the original publishing date on it. A lot of the posts I can't be bothered to republish, but some I have. I'm glad I have the time to do this now, I never did before.
Have you come across, like me, posts you have no memory about at all? And something I learnt when I was writing that never stayed in my brain.
ReplyDeleteOften sadly:)
ReplyDeleteI stumbled across your blog a few weeks ago from a comment you made on Debby’s blog (lifesfunnnylikethat) … I ended up going back to the beginning of your blog and reading up to the current day. Reading it made me realize I should stop feeling bad for myself … I’ve dealt with addiction issues with both my ex-husband and both children, dealing with issues from childhood, aging parents (or in laws). But you have so much kire on your plate … a daughter that needs help, raising a grandson, a career that n nursing in a very difficult field, etc. I have nothing but admiration. I love your pictures. I was also interested because I live in the us (Pennsylvania) but have a sister that lives in Calgary after a long career in nursing. I rarely comment on the blogs I read but I will continue to follow you … I find your strength and perseverance inspiring. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteThanks. I will keep hanging in there:)
DeleteIt is fascinating. I've done a lot of spot checking of posts and pictures due to the typepad to wordpress migration. I've gotten caught up in many posts from the past. Issues with people, situations at school or problems that I don't specify that I can't even remember.
ReplyDeleteThere are so many posts I don't even remember writing. I was shocked at how much time and energy my coworker took up in my life. She truly brought out the worst in me which made me dislike her even more, that and her shoddy nursing care.
DeleteI'm so glad you're back. When I went to check your blog yesterday it said it had disappeared! And I agree with anonymous above, you really have had an awful lot on your plate over the years - more than most, I would hesitate to suggest - and you are amazing! I pulled a couple of posts too when a "friend" blabbed and my blog was no longer anonymous. I don't know if I'll ever repost them but it's good to know they're still there!
ReplyDeleteI'll keep some posts, but as drafts. It's my writing and how I sort my shit out.
DeleteI wish you did not feel you had to delete all these posts. That is YOUR history.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry if I am speaking out of not understanding.
It is my history, you're right. And thank you.
DeleteYou are very brave, I would not even dare to go back to my early blog posts.
ReplyDeleteAs I said, I was depressed a lot of the time. I didn't realize how much of the time.
DeleteI have missed something -- you're deleting posts? What has happened? Although I've deleted some of my own out of deferene to the paranoia of someone who thought privacy had been breached (as if my blog is the provincial newspaper or something; gawd, people imagine things), and I avoid writing much about someone who prefers not to be mentioned, I'm still going to write whatever I want to share about my own experiences and the naysayers can fucking lump it. It's my blog = my party. That said, I'm curating my decades of handwritten journals with a view to what I want to leave behind when I go, and what I don't. So you go, girl, and do whatever pleases you. And enjoy the reminders.
ReplyDeleteThanks Kate. You remind to be myself.
DeleteOne of the issues with deleting posts is that you are getting rid of historical evidence of the life you have lived. To me that evidence - now stretching back twenty years - says a lot about who I am, where I have been and what I have thought about etc.. It is easy to forget and past blogposts jog my memory.
ReplyDeleteA lot of the old posts are garbage, some are thoughtful, some are just complaining, and some are just photos, but yes, it was my life.
DeleteWe (Allison & I) use her blog as a reference for all the events in our lives, as well as here commentary on the crazy world that we all live in. We use it a lot when we cannot remember important things that we need to. There's a real value to that. Just my 2 cents worth......
ReplyDeleteI agree and I never connected the two of you before:)
DeleteI do love your writing style, and the content. I will have to hurry to read your archives.
ReplyDeleteI already put all of my archives in the trash and I am slowly going through them to see if they are acceptable to publish, the ones that aren't, I'm still saving.
DeleteI've gone through and deleted posts before. It felt good.
ReplyDeleteThere are a lot of them and they bring up a lot of strong emotions.
DeleteBeautiful photo. ❤️ I wish you good health and happiness 😊
ReplyDeleteOh, good! I'm glad you sorted out a way to publish your posts that keeps the original date. :)
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