I'm feeling meh today. The sun is shining, that's not the problem. I'm retired, work's not the problem. Everyone is healthy, that's not the problem. I even made something I really like in my pottery class. I made a pitcher from watching a youtube video, so that's not the problem.
I huge part of the problem is the news, India and Pakistan, Ukraine and Russia, civil war in Sudan, Israel and Gaza/Lebannon/Yemen. There are two children missing in Nova Scotia, a six year old and a four year old. They wandered away from their home and live in a heavily forested area; they still haven't been found and it's been six days. I can't imagine how they can still be alive.
Yesterday Gracie's apartment building had a massive fire. Everyone got out and only one person ended up in hospital, but it's bad. Gracie's cat is missing and she doesn't know if any of her stuff survived. The building is L shaped and Gracie's apartment was quite far from where the fire started, but as you can see, this part of the building was damaged too. This will be bad for Gracie's mental health and by extension, bad for Jack. His room, and his stuff in his bedroom in her apartment, is probably all gone too. I haven't told him yet.
There is so much suffering and pain in the world and it hurts me, sitting here safely in my home. What do I have to complain about?
I feel like having a good cry and I probably will. Then I'll go work in the garden and walk the dogs and enjoy the sunshine because it's supposed to rain tomorrow. I hope the dirt and the sun and the birds will perform their magic and bring me some peace again.
I hope it helps! You are dealing with a lot.
ReplyDeleteIt did help. Thank you:)
DeleteA good cry is a way to release all those problems, just for today. I just had a good cry and I love seeing your beautiful pitcher and knowing the sun is shining for you and for so many of us, enough of the time.
ReplyDeleteI did have a cry and then went outside and worked in the dirt. That always helps.
DeleteHow do you know how to make such a cool pitcher? I guess youtube can teach us anything. That is so terrible about the fire, that is such a set back for everybody.
ReplyDeleteI learned how to quilt from youtube videos too. Gracie is not doing well mentally.
DeleteIt's supposed to rain here today and I'm in the mood for it, as is my stressed out lawn. There is SO much pain, suffering and war in the world and our crazy despot at the helm making everything even WORSE. Depressing indeed. I hope Gracie (and Jack's) stuff survived the fire; you're right that it will impact her mental health, not in a good way. Perhaps part of your depression is anticipation of future problems?
ReplyDeleteI wonder if it's even true depression. Looking back, I realize how anxious I was as a child and young women. When Katie was diagnosed I became very depressed, not surprising really. I've been on antidepressants for 32 years but I don't know it that's what it is. Is it my nature? My brain? Some days just suck:)
DeleteOh, no. This is terrible for everyone. I hope she finds her cat.
ReplyDeleteThe world is a mess and we seem to be a large part of the problem. I'm sorry for that. Have a cry. It helps.
I did cry and it did help a little. I hope Gracie finds her cat as well. She doesn't have much luck with keeping cats alive.
DeleteLove and hugs to you, Ms Pixilicious. Too bad we're 5 hrs apart and can't go together for that walk.
ReplyDeleteIt is too bad that we're so far apart. Maybe we should meet up halfway.
DeleteYou know what? I think that sometimes it's a sin not to cry. Why shouldn't we cry when we are affected by everything going on in the world, whether we think we are or not. We just are. And then we have our own things to worry and be sad or afraid about. I cannot understand people who don't cry.
ReplyDeleteThat pitcher is a beauty. You should be proud.
I talked to my brother yesterday and he was feeling the same way, feeling down about all the fuckery in the world. It was nice to talk to him. And yes, I cried yesterday.
DeleteThanks. The pitcher turned out better than I thought it would but the handle has a small crack so I'll have to talk to my teacher on Monday about that.
I am despairing of those kids too. GD fire...you surely didn't need that. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteI'm fortunate in that the fire didn't really impact my life but Jack's grandma now has Gracie living with her and those two don't get along at all. Jack was better than I thought he would be about the fire. His first question was about his tablet, and then the cat. I hope the tablet burned up:)
DeleteTuning out from the news might be helpful.
ReplyDeleteYou seem to be a natural at pottery, or a quick learner. How does it pour though?
We've had a couple of surprises when lost people were found well after the worst case time had ended. Keep up hope.
That's so terrible about Katie's accommodation. It looks like an older building, so no fire sprinklers.
It wasn't my daughter's apartment building, but rather Jack's mother's apartment building. I don't know if there were fire sprinklers but it was a very windy day, as most of the days so far this month. I think it might only be smoke and water damage, but the police and fire haven't let anyone back into the building yet.
DeleteI turned off the news this morning:)
The pitcher looks heavy but it is quite beautiful! YouTube ... you really can find anything on there!
ReplyDeleteGracie will probably fall off the wagon with this set-back, but let's hope she may have gotten stronger ... for herself and for Jack!
With all of the continuing fighting and killing and stupidity ... I keep asking: where is that God and that Jesus ... you know ... the ones supposedly watching over everyone, protecting everyone from all that bad stuff!?!?!
I use to be a solid believer ... not anymore! I do believe it will be the Aliens who finally intervene in the world's viciousness! Not kooky, just hopeful!
The pitcher is heavy and if it survives firing, I'll probably use it as a vase.
DeleteGracie has told her mom that she just wants to be dead, so that's really helpful. I feel bad for her, but it's hard to deal with her. Usually she falls off the wagon in the summertime, so I guess we'll see what happens.
Jack was asking me about hell this morning and I told him that I don't believe in hell, not in the afterlife anyway. I think lots of people here on earth live in hell already.
Your pitcher is marvelous! I saw that apartment fire on the news -- so many displaced now because of it. Sorry to hear Gracie is one of them.
ReplyDeleteThe other part of the apartment really got the worst of it but it faces 50st and I couldn't stop and take photos of it. Well, I could have, but would have caused an accident:)
DeleteThe pitcher has a crack in the handle, so we'll see how it fares in the firing.
Oh, poor Gracie. She does not need that kind of destabilizing event, does she? Nor does Jack. Hopefully she can get stuff out of her apartment and maybe her cat is still there somewhere, in hiding.
ReplyDeleteThere is a lot going on in the world, it's true.
I'm hopeful the cat survived the chaos and the fire; they are resourceful creatures.
DeleteSo far Gracie is not doing well, wants to be dead.
When you said you felt "meh", I had no idea what you meant. Perhaps it was an obscure "first nation" term. Anyway, I looked it up. "In slang, "meh" is an interjection expressing indifference, mild disappointment, or a lack of enthusiasm about something. It's a way of saying "not particularly good" or "it's okay, nothing special". "
ReplyDeleteVery sorry to hear about the fire over at Gracie's place. Hopefully, it's not disastrous for her.
Meh is the name of an emoji, and is the main character in "The Emoji Movie" which Phoebe might enjoy one day. It's quite a good movie. It's about being yourself and feeling all your feels.
DeleteI talked to Gracie today. She has an apartment lined up and people have been donating household items. She'll move in on Monday, with what she has. They have still not found the cat, I thought they had. Tomorrow morning a firefighter is going into her apartment to get some essentials for her.
You're right, the news is mostly depressing isn't it, and as you quite rightly say, it can feel embarassing sitting quietly in my nice little home when so many others can't say the same. I do hope they found those children and while I'm glad no-one was hurt at Gracie's apartment building, it's still got to be traumatic for everyone concerned!
ReplyDeleteThey still haven't found those missing children in Nova Scotia. I can't imagine what the parents are going through.
DeleteOne person was hurt in the fire, probably the one who started the fire. There was a person, who was using oxygen for breathing, who was also smoking. Oxygen is not flammable but it is an accelerant. The fire started in that apartment and I'm guessing, that's the person who ended up in hospitable.