Saturday, October 18, 2014
This is one of my favorite places in the world.
It's been a difficult week, again. I ran into another friend at work who is starting her cancer journey, one that will end with her death. Two friends, two different cancers, two deaths.
On Thursday, a co-worker (the one drives my crazy), made a patient's father cry with her insensitivity and her need to follow every single fucking rule, whether it applies to this situation or not, it didn't. I confronted her, lost my cool, reported her to my manager. Blah, blah, blah. Nothing changes.
I did have a job interview for another job, still within my hospital, but in outpatients. We shall see. I did cry during the interview, which might not have been a good idea, like I have any control over my tear ducts. The last question in the interview was, What is your purpose in life? I talked about souls and journeys and love and then started crying. What can I say? I am who I am.
I have decided not to keep Annie the beagle. Although she is a lovely dog, it's more responsibility than I want right now. It was a trial adoption and next weekend she will go to a foster home.
I've also decided to open my own photography business, which terrifies me. What if I'm not good enough? What if I screw up? I still don't really understand the technical side of photography but I'm learning it. I'm the kind of person who learns by doing. My big guy bought me a lovely filter for my birthday in September which I learned how to use. I love it! I can learn. I just have to believe that my work is worth money and work out the logistics.
It's a beautiful day here today, warm, sunny and all the leaves have changed color. I'm off to the river valley to take photos.