Friday, October 10, 2014
It's Thanksgiving this weekend. My son and his girlfriend will be over for supper on Sunday. I wanted to go hiking with them this weekend in the mountains but they're both too busy with school. My daughter in Vancouver will skype with us on Sunday. I miss her but she's busy with school too. I have to laugh because neither one of them graduated from high school and they're both getting business degrees. We'll see Katie on Monday; if the weather's still nice, we'll have a wiener roast down by the river and bring the dog.
We have a dog living with us, Annie. She's here for a trial. She's a very sweet, loving, well behaved beagle but I'm still not sure I want a dog in an apartment which is something I should have thought about for longer before taking her in. I do like to delude myself though. When I want something I tend to gloss over reality and tell myself that it will be fine. We'll see.
The big guy and I spent last weekend recharging our batteries in Jasper. The mountains were wonderful and worked their magic.
I'm still finding work difficult. Another friend of mine showed up yesterday. She has ovarian cancer and the surgeon couldn't remove all of the cancer. She's a year younger than me. There have just been so many sad stories lately. There is also so much love where I work. I see men caring for their wives, wives caring for their husbands, friends supporting and loving their friends, parents coming in with their middle aged children who are now dying before the parents. It's a difficult place to work but a wonderful place as well. I think it's all just to close right now with my girlfriend dying of cancer as well.
I called my girlfriend this past week. I'm reluctant to go over their because I don't want to interfere with the time she has with her family. She asked me how I was and I told her that I was feeling depressed. When she asked why I told her I was sad because she was dying and she said, "Oh Deb, I'm sorry." I pointed out to her that she was the one with the cancer. She told me how much food people have been bringing over. Nobody knows what to do, myself included, so we make food. She said that one week they had six batches of homemade cinnamon buns. I couldn't stop laughing. Her girls are sick of lasagna, another staple apparently. She has all her siblings coming this weekend to see her and I told her to make sure that she lets them take of her.
I'm reading a book right now called "For Joshua" by Richard Wagamese. He is an alcoholic, estranged from his sons due to his alcoholism. It's a book for his son but it's a book about living as an alcoholic as well. I have a hard time with alcoholics, they cause so much collateral damage to those living around them but this book helps me to understand the reasons that he drank. We all have our addictions.
Things I'm thankful for this Thanksgiving weekend.
A long weekend.
A beautiful, warm, sunny day.
A dog to walk with.
The big guy.
My bed, very soon.
What are you thankful for today?