It snowed last night, not a lot, but a harbinger of things to come. Snow itself is not a bad thing, but when it's combined with the cold and the dark, it gets me down. Life is just harder in the winter. Navigating snow lined, slippery streets is hard, getting groceries is harder, getting childen in and out of coats and boots is harder, everything just becomes that little bit harder.
Jack stayed home yesterday because he wasn't feeling well. He had a very slight fever and he was still coughing, so I said fine, but I also told him what I had to do yesterday and that he would have to come with me. We hung out at the rental for a couple of hours, waiting for the repair guy to come and finally fix the washing machine (it's been broken for three months, long story), took the dogs for a run at the dog park, and took Katie's wheelchair to be fixed. He also got his vaccinations at a local pharmacy which did not go well. It was done by a pharmacist who was fine, and did a good job, but he was no public health nurse and didn't really know what to do with a crying, screaming child.
By the end of the day I was feeling overwhelmed and overstimulated because Jack also talked for most of the day, except for the two twenty minute naps he took in the car while we drove Katie's wheelchair to the city. I hate feeling like that. I feel like a failure. I understand it's how my brain works but I wish it didn't.
Five less commonly known symptoms of ADHD in women.
1. Emotional dysregulation that includes intense mood swings. Difficulty regulating emotions.
2. Verbal processing, talking things out to understand them, often seen as oversharing.
3. Internalized hyperactivy, racing thoughts, anxiety, internal chaos.
4. Low frustration tolerance, minor setbacks can feel major or feel like defeat.
5. Impulse decision making.
Women often attribute these to a personal flaws, instead of recognizing these as core symptoms of ADHD. Yep.
Deep breaths. I took the dogs for a walk in the snow, now it's down to the basement to use the eliptical and lift a few weights. Hopefully that will help lift the fog in my brain.