My husband found these lovely waterfalls for us while we were in BC a few weeks ago.
There really isn't much going on with my life, I couldn't sleep last night. The teachers strike carries on, our provincial government unwilling to address overcrowded classrooms. My husband though, found a camp for Jack to go this week, Code Ninjas, learning computer skills. Of course Jack loves it.
It was nice to have some time to myself yesterday. I walked the dogs, went to pottery, and that was about it. I imagine the state of the world is part of the reason I can't sleep, and menopause, and age.
My niece and her boyfriend are getting married on November first and we're going to Canmore for the wedding. They were over yesterday to sign a petition and I gave them their wedding gift. They're a nice young couple.
I continue to go through my old blog posts. Right now I'm up to 2021 which is when Jack was taken into care and rereading those old posts brings up a lot of memories. I don't know if I can keep reading them, they break my heart. That might be affecting my sleep too.
I dropped Jack off at his camp and the owner running the camp told me how smart Jack is, he wanted to make sure I knew. I told him I knew but I think Jack's greatest gift is his curiosity.
Curiosity is so important. Every man I've been with has had that quality of wanting to learn and know about things; it's definitely a sign of intelligence. Sometimes my own curiosity verges on nosiness though. ;) Reading those old posts, the state of the world and my own country--not great for sleep. In checking that my pictures were there in my Typepad archives, I too have been visiting the past. It's emotionally exhausting.
ReplyDeleteIt is emotionally exhausting, makes me cry but I also want to salvage some of my posts. It's a record of my life.
DeleteI'm sure it's affecting your sleep (and your mood overall) to read through all those painful posts. It's great that your husband found something productive for Jack to do while the teachers' strike drags on. Coding is a valuable skill! I bet those camps are really full right now!
ReplyDeleteThe camps are full right now. And my mood, between provincial politics, the teachers strike, and old trauma, all feeling a bit much this morning.
DeleteYes - curiosity! Without it we might as well be dead. That applies to everybody - young and old alike - in the full and beautiful knowledge that we can never know everything.
ReplyDeletePoor Jack, he believes in his six year old soul that he already knows everything. The innocence of youth.
DeleteThat camp is a blessing for both you and Jack. I hope you an start sleeping again, that means so much.
ReplyDeleteWe all slept well last night in our house, the first time a week, it was wonderful.
DeleteI love Canmore weddings. As a former educator, I am sorry this strike continues...rumours suggest it may get worse next week though. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteIt is despicable when this government is doing, not only to teachers and children, but to all Albertans.
DeleteCuriosity is a marker for high intelligence. Jack's got it. I'm glad he's in camp, because he needs the new learning. This week may be more valuable than regular school anyway.
ReplyDeleteHe is loving the days at camp and he has structure and information, what he needs.
DeleteThink of how well Jack is doing now and what a good home he has.
ReplyDeleteThanks Andrew:)
DeleteI can understand why rereading old posts can be disturbing or unsettling. Many, many reasons.
ReplyDeleteIsn't that the truth? I had no idea of how depressed I was, or how dark the pandemic was for me, as well as everyone else. It's not comfortable going through all the trauma that happened with Jack again either.
DeleteHope your sleep gets back to a healthy pattern soon.
ReplyDeleteOur grandchild's teachers are on a one-day strike today and we were informed by the grandchild that it was "for the all better for all" but that it is "kind of hard to understand".
Your grandchild is right:)
DeleteSleep has returned to our house thankfully.
What made you decide to go through your old posts? And of course Jack is whip smart. I love that he's learning coding and that his teacher *sees* him.
ReplyDeleteI think one of the hardest things I had to deal with around Katie's diagnosis, was that she was not smart, could not be smart. Of course I was wrong, Katie is disabled but she is also a smart young woman in her own way.
DeleteI'm glad Jack is enjoying the camp and the challenges it has for his brain.